Thursday, January 29, 2015

Hope and Pray for the Best!

I didn't have a very happy day at work. Maybe it's my age or maybe it's stress, but it seems like I just can't think like I used to be able to. My brain feels numb and I have the little hum going on between my ears, like every day. Maybe I killed too many brain cells with all the cleaning I've done over my lifetime with bleach. (Yes. They've done studies and it does affect our children. YET, they continue to clean with bleach in every day care in American. Go figure.) (Don't get me going on why they put bleach in our water. I might just go ballistic!)

When I arrived at worked this morning, there were notes all over my desk. I had made 3 deposits into the wrong account and then, to top it off, I had no recollection of a check in the amount of $9,000.00 that should have come into our office. Are you kidding?!! Do you know how many checks and figures I calculate every day? NO. Again, I have a hard enough time remembering what I did yesterday much less what I calculated yesterday.

Needless to say, I took a potty break. You know, to wipe my eyes and blow my nose. It was not a fun day for yours truly. Just an FYI, I pray every morning that God will help me do the best I can and that He will help me to think (clearly). Hmmmm.

Roxie is doing her best NOT to freak out about her test results. Maybe it's just a cyst. Maybe it's a random mix-up. Maybe it's from chemo. Maybe there's a logical explanation for why her prolactin levels came back higher than normal. So, we hope and pray for peace (for all concerned) to wait this out. And HOPE that some way, some how we won't have to wait for surgery to know for sure. That's 26 days from now at best. 

I hope and pray that tomorrow will be better. I hope and pray for the best.

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Yes, We HOPE!

Up and down. Down and Up. Teeter totter and roller coaster. Yes. That about describes our lives, doesn't it? 

Today's news? The blood panel they took came back negative for cancer. BUT, we know how that turned out last time. They send it now to pathology. So, we hold our breath for their review. Roxie will have more tests on Friday morning. Everything does sound like it will be a go for her dual surgery on February 24th. So, that's a positive and we are thankful that things are coming together.

Again. Hope is the word. We hope that today's test showed the truth and that pathology will confirm that it is not cancer. Amen!?! Yes, we hope.

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Up in the Air, Again!

Yep. Again. Roxie's ultrasound shows that she has a mass on her ovary. It's either a cyst (benign) or a tumor. They did a blood panel now (hold your breath) but will remove it during surgery and biopsy it.

That's the bad news. Now for the good. Roxie's doctor had the same breast cancer and did the same reconstructive surgery and hysterectomy simultaneously like Roxie is doing. (Very comforting.) Also, her surgery day is the same day that her reconstructive surgery is scheduled. That means that they just have to reserve the operating room. We will know tomorrow if that works and if it's a go for the 24th of February.

Yes. We are a bit unsettled. A bit uncertain. And totally wonder, yet hope that this will just be another hurdle to catapult on our way to health and wholeness. 

Although we continue to pray and hope, we still feel the uncertainty. Yep. We're up in the air, again. 

Monday, January 26, 2015

Work and Surgery

Today went fairly smoothly for me. My desk was not piled high like is usually the case, so that was a big relief. It was also nice that it's still light out at 5:00, although after running errands, it's dark as night for the commute home. Errands, chores, planning for tomorrow and then couch equals crash, then repeat tomorrow. I know you can relate.

Roxie's update is that she has to see the doctor again tomorrow and have a pelvic ultrasound before surgery. Then they will coordinate a surgery room with her reconstructive surgeon. Prayers for this to work perfectly for everyone concerned. Prayers that there is not even a trace of cancer in her body. She's still a little weak and tired. Very tired. The kind of tired that just doesn't go away even though she naps or sleeps.

I haven't heard how Mitch's day went, but I bet it went well. He drove equipment in the service, so I'm sure it was all good.

All-right-ty then. That's about it. My life will be pretty dang boring for the next few months. I will try to spice it up as often as I can. Actually, maybe I will post directly from my journal. That should be a little more exciting than writing about work and surgery. 

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Big Day Tomorrow!

My last day before I start working full time for the next three months has literally breezed by. It didn't help that I spent the whole morning in bed. I wasn't feeling very well after our good-bye party last night. One of the signs of old age, I guess. Just can't handle it. Hubby's pretty tired also. He wanted to crawl back in bed this morning too.

It was good to see everyone and although I hugged Annie longer than ever and told her she couldn't go, she's pretty excited. I'm sure. I would be too. Her man got a job already, so things are moving along quite nicely. Today, she is busy packing up her things. We will miss her. She's moving about 5 hours north of San Antonio. Should be pretty nice there, although they did have snow the other day. Any amount of snow is a snow day in the south. It delayed the start of his job by two days. He starts tomorrow.

Roxie goes to the OB/GYN doctor tomorrow and we still pray that she will be able to coordinate her surgeries so they will be on the same day and just before the weekend, so her hubby will be home to help her recoup. 

I'd say that it's going to be a big day tomorrow. Yes. A very big day!