So many directions I could go in, but guess I need to do an update.
Roxie is in the middle of radiation and does not feel well at all. She's extremely tired and finds that she is not able to do very much. I could tell that before she even said anything because she didn't answer my questions about Rylan's birthday or if she will needed my help. I wish I could take the pain away from her. I know, duh, right?
Granny (my mother) would have been 92 yesterday and Ginny's been in heaven with Granny now for two weeks. It's just wrong that a grandchild is with her in heaven before her own children. It really makes me wonder. Ginny's youngest is 14-15, so I hope and pray that the good Lord sends arms of comfort to him on a regular basis. I'm sure his older sisters will be there as often as he needs.
In the meantime, I've continued to ask God why. Why wasn't Ginny healed? Did we need to pray harder? I don't think so because that would be striving or wrestling with heaven and based on our performance. It is truly at this point where the rubber hits the road and we have to acknowledge that our understanding is limited. We can rest because we do not have the whole picture, but we know that we did our best to do our part in prayer.