Monday, September 22, 2014

Seriously! Darkness Does NOT Win!

Roxie's lifetime suggested verse is Psalm 27:1

The Lord is my light and my salvation. Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the strength of my life. Whom shall I be afraid?

I couldn't help but grab on to verse 5. In the day of this not the day of great trouble? He will keep me safe....and He will hide me in the shelter of his sacred tent and set me high up on a rock.

We have experienced more than our share of darkness today. But, because we trust and hope I him who will not disappoint us or let us down, we hang I there and bank on the fact that light overcomes all the darkness.

There you go! Seriously! Darkness will not and does NOT win!

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Darkness Does NOT Win!

Cancer is dark. Very dark. It is uncertain. It is shaky. It is terrifying. It is hidden until revealed, then when revealed either lays low or rapidly spins out of control.

Then, as if that wasn't enough, Roxie's vehicle decided to give it up. The whole suspension is cracked. Who needs more bad news? Anyone up for it?

Funny. All I could think of was Job. His own wife told him to curse God and die. But, he wouldn't do it anymore than I would. Perhaps we are a pitiful bunch, those of us who trust in God in spite of our difficulties, but I know He is still God. He is still good. He is still to be respected.

Compassion is learned through suffering. God Himself sent his own son, His flesh to experience humanity (suffering) and to show us compassion. As followers of Jesus, we know that suffering produces endurance which produces character which produces hope. Hope has no shame. No shame because God pours His love into our hearts. (See Romans 5:3-5)

In II Thessalonians 2:16-17 I am encouraged to read that both Jesus and God our Father encourages our hearts and strengthens us! If both Jesus and God respond, that's a double dose of strength and encouragement. That's a double blessing.

Yes. That's what we need right now. We need a double dose of His love to be poured into our hearts today. In fact, we look for it.

Yes. We know the end of the story. We know that in the end, darkness does not win!

Saturday, September 20, 2014

Flesh and Soul!

If it's happening to my daughter, born of my flesh, it's happening to me. Yes. My daughter, my flesh, is scared. Yes. Scared and sad. I'm scared and sad.

In spite of everyone surrounding us and rallying to help us, there is still a sense of alone-ness. There is still the realization that in spite of all the offers to help, there is nowhere else to turn, but to our Maker, our Creator. He alone is the True Healer. He alone is our source of hope. Not just for today, but for the future.

Psalm 52:9 spoke to me this morning. His name is our hope. His name is good.

John 16:33 reminded me that His presence is my peace.

As a child I was trained to hide my feelings. As a follower of Christ, I am learning to express my feelings, even if they are negative because He really does care. Besides, He knows how I feel anyway.

There was a line from the book I'm reading right now (Life Support by Robert Whitlow) that made a comment about the man who was healed by the pool of Bethesda, "Of all the other sick people around the pool, only one saw the face of Jesus in a way that brought healing."

I really like that line. Yes. Let us see the face of Jesus in such a way. Let it bring healing to our flesh and soul.

Friday, September 19, 2014


As part of my lesson in The Artist's Way, I was to write a letter to someone who encouraged me to be creative. The following is what I wrote in my journal. Since both of us have been so busy we can hardly think much less have time to chat, I thought I'd post it to my blog as a surprise. Hopefully, she will have time to read it.

To My BFF:

My BFF is not only my best friend, she is my champion, as defined in The Artist's Way, means that she has been a blessing to my creative spirit by rooting for me. She is my one and only because she alone has wished me well. Oh, it's not that other's have not made a comment or two, but she has prayed, hoped and dreamed for me.

She believes in me and in my writing ability. She specifically responds to certain writings or lines that move her or that she relates to. When she tells me how she likes this or that line in something I've written, it not only encourages me, but it makes me feel like someone has connected with me through my creativity. I feel understood. I feel loved in a way like no other love. I feel as if my writing was somehow of significance, as if it was somehow a divine creation and with a divine purpose. Holy even. As if, perhaps, there really was a reason for me to write it. Not just as a means of expression but for sharing the gift of connected expression with one other person.

Some artists are able to write 'so-so' songs which sell or at least get played on the radio, while other artists write songs which touch our hearts and move us emotionally to a better place.

Because my BFF has encouraged me, I experienced a taste of what it's like to touch hearts and, quite frankly, I want more. I want to keep creating. I, too, have been moved to a better place.

Thank you, BFF. You are the #1 champion in my hall of fame!

P.S. Maybe someone else will come to mind and I will write a letter to them as well. Shoot. It's early yet. I'm still on Lesson One. Until then, you will always be My BFF!

Thursday, September 18, 2014

More Good News!

When you are prepared for the worst, a little bit of good news goes a very long way. It kind of makes you wonder when you can feel so good about something so wrong. But, both my daughter and I feel very encouraged and, actually, good! 

Roxie met with the reconstructive surgeon today who was very encouraging. He told her that if she were his wife, he would not have her remove her nipples. He advised her not to remove more than she had to and right now he did not see any evidence of cancer in her nipple or areola. He reassured her that it would be better and that they would only remove them if they had to. He said that she will have follow up checks to make sure everything is healing properly.

He spent quite some time with her and explained everything about the procedure which will take about 6 hours. It is a very good feeling to know that we have a very good group of surgeons who are doing an outstanding job of helping us during a very difficult time.

It's just great to have more good news!